caught in a bad romance

i am so obsessed over this.

now back to editing the essay!

erm, yeah

sometimes, writing comes so easily to me, and at other times, i have to literally force the words out of my head and force my fingers to type them out on the screen. and then my inner censor comes in and just presses the backspace button to erase just about everything that i have written.

today, i have mostly been sitting in front of my laptop and staring at the measly 300-ish words that i have written since morning. what in the world is wrong with me? it should really not be so difficult to write when i have thought about these issues before, but i am just not getting inspired.

and that really is just the first of the long list of excuses.

and since i am procrastinating, i have to say that for the record, i am loving the new haircut!

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and they all float

haha, if you think about it, IT is actually kind of sad.

as you can tell, i am not so pissed anymore (until the next development in the saga). seriously, i’m just wondering who really does this. anyway, i have got more things to worry about like the korea presentation, and the essay due next week, and whether i’ll get a job next year when i graduate, and whether my mother will ever let go.

so yeah, my plate is not only huge, but there are a million things on it.

bloody hell, i am so pissed. and annoyed. and unmotivated. and so freaking tired of all this bullshit.

not a pattern to imitate exactly, but a frame of reference

no matter what happens, the histo project will be handed up tomorrow, and we can then proceed to make a bonfire out of a certain piece of reading that we have to constantly refer to. alternatively, we could also tear it up, and this i feel is a more satisfying way to mark the end of the fantabulous project.

i am quite on task tonight for all the things that i have to do. i have finished reading through iggers and managed to do one reading for malaysia. lemon on marx is pretty difficult to get through and i am extremely tired and my brain just refuses to focus and read the damned chapter. the long nights in school have tired me out somewhat and i need to keep my energy up if i am going to survive the rest of this semester, what with all the assignments that are due very soon.

if it were up to me, i would give myself a break and not go to school for a few days. but since it is not, i have to continue working and putting in effort in school. this business of trying to get my CAP up is always on my mind.

so in the words of Tim Gunn, i just have to “carry on”.

put a ring on it

i have been working quite insanely this past week, and this is the first time in a very long while that i am actually at home before ten. and i was actually home before the sun had set, and have finally, really and truly rested.

while the week in korea was absolutely fantabulous, and i do want to go back (more on korea in another post), i soon realised that i had a mountain of work waiting for me. and that has led to me spending the past two weekends in school. but, i guess the good thing about working insanely is that your workload actually lessens, and you can spend time doing other stuff and doing work for other mods. and watching glee

the only tv that i cannot stop myself from watching is glee. everything else, i can be disciplined about. but, glee is just awesomely fun, and the music is so good. and i am inspired to learn the single ladies’ routine.

off to KOREA!

i still cannot quite believe that in a couple of hours i’ll be on a flight to KOREA.

haha, i don’t know why i am using upper case letters to spell KOREA.

but anyway, i am super excited because i’ve never been there before and this will be like, a first real trip with my real classmates.

omg.omg. omg.

okay, i am barely coherent now but school had been rockin’ to say the least. it’s been stressful just about all the time. challenging because there are so many readings and new things to learn. and it is actually quite awesome.

oh and i lost like 3 kg.

yup, it’s been good so far. i’ll say hello from seoul soon

rant

seriously, how difficult is it to write 500 words?

and it’s not like you have no idea what to write. just type out what’s in your head.

it. is. all. there.

heh.

so imagine the sound of a grass cutter.

do you hear it? whirring in you head?

that’s what my dear laptop now sounds like.